Article by Wendy McCance
I have a secret to tell you. There are very few people who know I’m writing a blog. When I started this blog, it was the most random decision and stemmed from a lot of built up of stress and disillusionment. I was so upset with my work life, health, family drama etc… I was just burnt out and numb.
I started writing to unload every feeling about every situation that had somehow gone bad. I was questioning the secret to happiness. What would it take to set myself right and put me back on a positive course? So I started writing and unloading everything that had been building up inside of me for such a long time.
I didn’t believe anyone would notice me writing and felt pretty brave about saying whatever was truly on my mind without worry of judgement, offending anyone or having to play it safe in any way. I was shocked and surprised when people started noticing me. I started getting some great comments which propelled me to keep going without worry of changing my style of writing or what I was saying.
So here I am a few months later, comfortable with my blog and feeling a thousand times better about myself and where I’m heading. So, why am I being so secretive about the blog with people I know? Well, I tippy-toed my way into the idea of mentioning it to a few close people. I told my mom, my dad, my husband’s mom and one of my closest friends. Everyone was supportive except for my mom who kinda really didn’t get the whole blogging thing at all. Understandable since she is barely computer literate. My dad turned out to be the most supportive and asks about the blog and encourages me all the time. He thinks it matches my personality and works well with the juggle of family life and my health issues. He has not read my blog, he doesn’t even own a computer let alone know how to turn one on. My husband’s mom was supportive, but I think she wonders where this writing interest came from and thinks it’s rather random. My friend thought it sounded good but didn’t say much else. None of these people have read it or asked me to pull it up on the computer so they could check it out. The only person who has read my blog was my husband who checks in on its progress periodically.
The question I have been asking myself is who really has your back? Can you tell friends and family what you are doing in life without fear of them looking down on you? I was so scared to mention my blog to anyone. No one knew I liked to write. Heck, I didn’t know it either until I started the blog so that’s understandable. What drives me crazy is that people I know are taken of guard and just think it’s too random. I say, why not? What does it matter when the interest begins? If it isn’t stated early in life what does that really matter?
This is what I have learned. I am afraid to open myself up as fully as I will in my blog. I’m talking about opening up to the friends and family who have known me for years. I guard myself for fear of being looked down or laughed at. I have read a few blogs here and there since I started blogging. There are so many people who can pour their heart out on a page for the anonymous world to see, but I will bet you that these people wouldn’t dare be this authentic with people in their everyday life. Why is this? How can I be so proud of my blog in front of people I don’t know, but feel embarrassed about it in front of people I do know?
I have always thought I was incredibly genuine around people in my everyday life. I am not known for being fake in any way. I tell it like it is, and I’m kind. I don’t gossip or treat people in any way other than how I would like to be treated. Yet, I never realized that I still guard myself. I give people only a peek at all there is going on inside of me. Maybe if I was as open in person as I am on this blog, there wouldn’t have been such a surprised reaction. Maybe then a portion of my followers would be people I know and love. I think my next big step will be to be more open to those who know me. Really start to put myself out there and allow people to truly know who I am.
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