Article by Wendy McCance
So, if you know me, or have read some of my articles, you know I am always soul searching. I believe there is so much more to life than the tiny spec that shows up in front of us each day. To live your life fully and get the very most out of it, I think it’s important to reevaluate where you are at, if you are happy and what you can do to improve upon your circumstances. I also read like a madwoman. I want to grab every bit of knowledge I can.
That being said, I have been stuck. Recently I have had a change of course. I could feel that there were areas of my life that didn’t thrill me as they once had and I had to stop and ask myself what was going on. It took months to completely unwind why my enthusiasm wasn’t so great. I had to pay attention to where my energy was going. It settled on family and expression without distraction. I just needed to put time back into enjoying family life and writing what suits me without worry of deadlines, prospecting and all of the other business related stress.
Why now? What caused the shift? Being sick and afraid and not knowing how my future would unfold. I just felt this intense need to grab up every good moment and let go of the rest.
Right now I’m living in a little bubble. My world revolves around my family and that’s it. I’m not doing too much with friends and work is very limited to what I already have on my plate. And you know what? I like it that way. I know this isn’t how it’s always going to be, but for the moment it was important for me to slow down.
I have days where I can completely forget I am sick, and then there are other days that frighten me horribly. I will wake up with blood in my mouth or I will notice I’m bruising easily. I get horrible rib and lower back pain and I’ll be roused out of sleep by muscles cramping in my legs. It sucks to have cancer and the worst part is, I’m just getting started. I’m currently in the smoldering stage of multiple myeloma. Basically, I am in the watch and see spot where treatment hasn’t started but I get blood tests and x-rays every few months to see if there is progression. I should be happy that I’m not in treatment yet, but the fear of the future and the scary symptoms of the present don’t help.
I am a big believer of signs. I have had many occassions where I have written on this blog about things I can’t explain, but comforted me or put me on a better path or even showed me I was doing the right thing.
A few night’s ago, I had made my decisions about what to do with this blog, my writing career and how I would like to spend my time. It was a relief to talk through my plans with my husband and see that he felt I was doing the right thing. Later that night, I was sitting down when I noticed a white feather on my leg. I know this sounds crazy, but whenever I have had a difficult time making a choice and I finally choose, there are moments when I will see a white feather.
You have to understand that the only thing in our home that has feathers in it is a small blanket my son has in his room. I had been nowhere near the blanket and yet, there I was sitting down with a feather in my lap. I took it as a sign that I made a good decision and felt at peace about what the future would hold with this new way of going about things.
Well, sure enough, the following few days have been some of the best. I began writing the way I needed to be writing again and I let go of the stress. I have immersed myself in cooking for the family, taking walks with my husband, talking for hours with the kids about anything and everything and overall, I’ve just been enjoying the life I have.
There has been a cozy vibe that could be felt throughout the house. Lots of laughter, terrific meals and some good bottles of wine. Even on the work front, I have seen a shift. I have had one of my blog posts featured in The Oakland Press which came as a complete surprise to me. I have had some offers for work assignments from people who found me on LinkedIn (although I didn’t accept the assignments, it was nice to be asked) and I’ve increased the number of people following me on some of my social media platforms.
I have picked up some new well-known inspirational speakers who decided to reach out and follow me on Twitter. I’m thrilled to connect. Ironically, in the middle of this shift in my life, my very first blog follower reached out to me out of the blue on Twitter just the other day. I haven’t heard from them in a few years and it was wonderful interacting again.
It’s what I’ve seen happen before. Once you are in a space where the true essence of who you are shows through, you become like a magnet and all that compliments that authenticity seems to be placed in your direction. It’s at that moment when I know with absolute certainty that I have found the path which I should be following and that I am living my life in a truly authentic way.
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